Weekly Wishes 1

I have been wanting to join in on this for a while now and I am happy I am finally sitting down to do it! YAY!

I need to become more of a planner so I am hoping this helps me!

This weeks wishes

1. Run 5 miles

2. Sell all 7 of my V3 Max boxes :-)

3. Go through my shoes and get rid of the ones I do not wear much.

4. Make ME something

5. Do at least 100 crunches

This months wishes

1. Have a frozen themed party for Gracie
2.Take Family Photos
3. Lose 15 pounds.
4. Get Gabriel Walking
5. Help Gracie learn to spell 6 new words!

The Polyvore Files: Drop it Like a Squat

I am pretty certain I have already done my Polyvore one time of workout clothes but guess what? I can do 2 right?

I have been working my butt off this week and FEELING AMAZING! I started taking the V3 Max which is a natural weight loss supplement and IT IS THE BOMB! I am loving it so much and I have so much energy. I have actually been looking on Etsy to order this tank because I LOVE it! Also the shoes? Must have!

I am so excited about this year because I feel this is my year to be fit. I WANT TO LOOK HOT. I want to feel beautiful. I want to be comfortable in my own skin...for a change.

Also? It would be lovely to go on a date Friday night for Vday. We will see?

Happy Sunday Lovies!

Workout Jams

My computer has been super sick for a little while now....sometimes it connects to the WiFi and sometimes it doesn't. I am not sure what the heck is going on. Last night I spent at least an hour trying to get online to do a post but my Mac wasn't having it. Hopefully when we get our taxes back I can take it to the Apple store and have them fix it. So some days if you see me absent...that is why.

I wanted to tell you guys a couple of my favorite songs I am totally in love with right now. I actually used to listen to heavy rock when I exercised but the past few nights I have been listening to super soft music and believe it or not it has helped me run longer and gave me more stamina. Last night a few songs I listened to were...



 By the way, have I ever told you how much I love Christina Perri?! She is absolutely beautiful and for sure one of my favorite singers. What's your favorite workout songs?

The Polyvore Files

Yesterday I went Prom Dress shopping with my little sister. It was SO much fun. Surprisingly I have never done anything like that and it was such a treat. It totally made me wish I would have went to prom....or had a wedding. My mom and I were so excited to see her in dress after dress. Since I never got to experience such I figured it would be fun to create my Polyvore set this week around what I would have chose to wear....SOO IN LOVE with these beauties.

Jello to Hello Check In

It has been a little bit since I filled you all in with my weight loss. I am still taking my V3 as well as eating healthy and exercising. I can tell you this....I FEEL MUCH better. My numbers are not dropping as quickly as I would like but my inches are. I feel a difference in lots of my clothes. I will NOT stop. I am determined to get where I want to be. I have been eating lots of fruits and veggies and drinking nothing but water. 

I LOVE Social Media because it allows me to keep motivated by reading other blogs as well as Instagram. Whenever I feel like giving up I head over to Joni or Erica's blog and get myself back in check. Losing weight is NOT easy. If it was we would not have so many people who struggle with their weight. I am not a huge believer on saying that you have to be skinny to be beautiful but I know that if I am not happy with myself, no matter what size I am, I have to do something about it....and that is what I am doing. I hope you all will encourage me and follow me through my weight loss journey. :-)

The Polyvore Files

I am so loving this outfit. Today I had to go to the grocery store and I wore something a little similar, minus the boots. I want these....like yesterday. Also I am really feeling this beanie. Whenever I go anywhere I make a list and this notepad would be so perfect to carry around with all my little list....LOVE it!

Sleep Hates Me.

I am sure I have told you all before about my intense dreams...Last night was one of those nights where I had such awful nightmares that I refused to go back to sleep at 4 am. I have had this problem my ENTIRE life. I can still remember my dreams from when I was 6 or 7 years old.

I have no clue why my brain comes up with this crazy things but I have tried just about everything. When I was in high school I took a Psychology classe and we had to write a dream journal for a month....when we turned ours in my teacher talked to me a week or so later and said maybe I needed to speak to someone. HA. Last time I ever shared my dreams with an outsider other than family and close friends.

I have really been wanting a dream catcher and although I am sure they will not knock my nightmares out it is worth a shot, plus they are super cool. I found one I LOVED on Etsy and tell me it isn't the most adorable thing?

How about do a gal a favor and keep me in your thoughts and prayers to subside these nightmares. It would be super cool to actually have a decent nights sleep without waking up in the early hours with my chest hurting. Thanks guys! AND Happy Friday! I hope you all have a Fantastic weekend!

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Punk Rock Twins Review

I recently got my hair redone the other night and I knew that even with the short hair I had to accessorize. Jessica over at Punk Rock Twins sent me this adorable headband and I love it. I sent her my head measurement and when I put the band on it fit perfect. The headband she sent me is also reversible which is awesome because you can match it with your different outfits. I chose to get one side black and the other white with a design on each. Jessica makes TONS of different items, not just headbands so be sure to check her out. She has a Facebook page with everything as well.

What do you guys think of the new Do? 

The Polyvore Files

I told you guys the other day how I was in a terrible slump, so I decided I need to really do something about that. I have got to lose this extra forty pounds that's holding me back. I am taking the V3 which I love by the way, but I also I want to work out so I was looking to purchase a used treadmill. I haven't really found many nice ones on craigslist so my mom told me we could borrow hers until we got one and for that I am SO thankful. I went and got it today after my Panthers lost and immediately came home and ran a mile. I say that like I do it often but I haven't actually RAN a mile in years....I am super proud of myself and I know this is the start of something good.

I hope you will all follow along with me as I go about my weight loss journey. I will be sure to post pics as much as I can but to get a better idea of what's going on I would recommend following me on Instagram and Facebook

Being Honest..

If we are being real....I am going to show you real.

I am in a slump. A bad one. I feel totally down about myself and the only way to change that is to do something about it and I know that....BUT. It is hard.

First of all I chopped ALL of my hair off. I totally thought it would be cute and well....it's not. Some people have the face and skin for it but I do not. I am bummed. I used my hair as a shield and now I have nothing to hide behind anymore...I am totally exposed and I do. Not. Like. It. One. Bit. I am going to get my hair "fixed" tomorrow because in the process of chopping it off I also decided that dying it red would be hot....again. It's not, and it is now pink. Awesome.

Next thing. I am fat. Simply put. I need to lose weight and I have started the V3 again which I know will help me. I need to do this. I do not like feeling this way because it is not me. I am a happy person.

I am sorry for the crappy post. I know I always post upbeat things but if I can't be honest why even blog...

Send me good vibes please that my hair will turn out good tomorrow and I can kick this weight off!

Girl Talk

I have never had perfect skin and it seems like I still have periods where my face will break out like I am in high school which is totally not cool. I have never been one of those people who spend a chunk of change on decent makeup but I am really starting to consider it. I think the cheap foundations I am wearing has something to do with my face breaking out like it is. I want to ask you ladies.What is your favorite foundation?

I am hoping to possibly be able to get some after Christmas and some help in the right direction would be lovely.

Date Night....Kinda

So last night on a spur of the moment whim, me and rick decided to go out to dinner, money is tight but we wanted a night out so we headed to good ole Cracker Barrel. If you follow along on my little blog you will already know that is one of my favorite restaurants. I got myself all fixed up and even was  able to finally wear my new Conley Crochet headband out in the world. Ever since I have chopped all my hair off I have not felt the best about myself. I have been feeling insecure and way more exposed. I used to use my hair as a shield and now I am totally naked! This beautiful headband turned my confidence back up and I actually felt pretty! YAY!

I have been wearing this all week and even if I look bummy, when I add this, it makes me feel cute. I LOVE the huge bow and the comfort of it. Comfort is a huge deal for me because a lot of times headbands give me a headache but not this one! I can't tell you how many compliments I have received on it just in ONE night! 

Our date night ended up being a total flop from crappy service and a long wait so we walked out and just picked up take out. BOOOO! Rick did tell me multiple times he thought I looked so pretty so that was a plus. We came home with our little family, let the kids play and watch TV and we caught up on a couple series. Overall the night was different than planned but a good night nonetheless and I am super happy to have gained a little confidence back.

If you get a moment head over to Noy's shop. Her products are beautiful!

Happy Weekend Friends!

Yesterday. I officially lost my mind.

Yesterday I lost my mind.
Officially lost it.
I was cleaning and like usual vacuuming every single day because my hair falls out everywhere and I don't want the babies to get it wrapped around a finger or toe. I became super frustrated because everywhere I looked there was my hair, even though I had just vacuumed the day before. Then I started thinking about all these precious children that go through chemo and lose ALL of their hair and how that must make them feel so I went right into the bathroom and chopped ALL my hair off. All of it. So many things were running through my mind at the time and I just didn't care, it's just hair...


Let me tell you. I hate my hair. I feel ugly. It's gone and I feel naked. I know it will grow back in time and although I was trying to do something selfless I feel so upset. I got up this morning, looked in the mirror and busted out crying. I will get used to it of course, because there really is no choice in the matter, its done.

I have always been the type of person to do things in the spur of the moment, this would be no shocker to my family or anyone that knows me. When I was in fourth grade I wanted my cartilage pierced, I begged my mom but she said no way. So when we went to the grocery store that day I stayed in the car, took my earring out and pierced my cartilage. When she came back I was so excited, I said, "Look mom, I did it". Needless to say she made me take it out, grounded me, and I got a nice spanking when I got home. I have pierced everything myself, always have, and usually my mom just makes me take them out.

Now that I have kids of my own, I have kinda backed away from being so wild but there are still moments (like yesterday) I make a rash decision.

Oh well. Hair will grow back right?

My relationship with my parents

I have two awesome parents, along with awesome step parents.

My mom and dad divorced when I was 4 or 5...Honestly I can never see how they were together, they are so different, but I am so thankful they were together, I love them both with all my heart. I am thankful they divorced also because I wouldnt have my siblings now or my stepparents and they all play a wonderful role in my life and who I am today.

I am very close with my mom, we talk several times a day and see each other sometimes throughout the week and every weekend. I can talk to her about pretty much everything, I would say she still treats me like a kid though. I am 24 and she forbids me to get anymore tattoos, and still likes to know where I am...haha. Very protective I would say, but I like it...most the time. The older I get the more I understand her ways and it just shows how much she truly loves me. When I was a teenager we were close but I was so selfish and stubborn I hated how stern and controlling she was, but now I am thankful. I hope I can be half the mom she is.

Me and my mom from beach about 4 years ago

Me, Rick, Tori, and Cal (My stepdad)

My dad on the other hand is pretty much the complete opposite, he is VERY laid back and has never been strict or told me what to do about anything...When I was a teenager I thought that was SOO cool, and don't get me wrong my dad is an awesome dad and loves me so much but I think alot of times he just didn't want confrontation or to upset me so he would keep his feelings about my choices to himself. I love talking to my dad, he always makes me laugh no matter what the situation is, that is one thing my mom said she did love about him.  I call my dad every week or he calls me, he isnt really a phone person and he lives at the beach so we don't get to visit often which sucks because I really miss him.

Renee(My stepmom), Josh, Lindsay, and My daddy

3 Fears

1. Dying or someone close to me dying. I am terrified of this. I have never had anyone close to me die before except for my husbands mom and my grandma. My grandma passed when I was one, so I dont remember that, but when my husbands mom died it was awful. I truly had a hard time. I am so scared of another grandparent dying or parents or anyone in my family for that matter, I just dont know how I would deal with it. I just love all my family so much and cant imagine my life without them. Honestly, I would rather die than anyone close me...
2. Possums. This is a weird fear I might admit, but let me tell you. I am without a doubt petrified of possums. They make me sick. I hardly even go outside at night for fear of seeing one. They look like giant rats, another fear by the way. But its something about a possums face and tail that I just cant stand. Luckily I havent seen a live one in about a year....I stay sheltered and away...lol.
3. Being a bad parent. I have an awful fear of raising Gracie the "wrong way". Granted, there are many ways to raise your child but I just dont want to make mistakes. YES, I know, I have made tons of mistakes already but what if allowing her to see something on tv by accident ruins her little mind, or arguing with someone, or ....etc. The possibilities are endless. I just want to do the best I can in raising her and all I can do is pray God will guide me and help me make the right choices and do the best I can.

Finally at the Beach!

Every year my family and I head to Cape Hatteras for our summer vacation. We always have such a blast and stay at a beach house almost directly beside Cape Hatteras Lighthouse which is so cool because I can just spend hours out on the porch looking at the ocean and the lighthouse, two of my favorite things. I use to live at the Outer Banks when I was a kid. My dad has lived there most of my life and I went to high school there which was pretty enjoyable. I decided to move back to my hometown after I graduated because it was just to costly to live up there (Outer Banks). I truly do miss alot of things about it. Anyway....back to our vacation. Rick, Gracie, and I always vacation up there in July with my Mom, Stepdad, and Sister and we all stay at the beach house. I SO love it. We go to the beach, the pool, and one day me, rick, and gracie went to the ferry docks right at Ocracoke and shopped around up there. It was amazing to see how far the locals have come since the hurricane last year made such a terrible impact on that part of the isalnd, you can still see damage all around, they even had to build a new bridge connecting to hatteras island because a whole new inlet was made. We had a great few days at the house and just enjoyed each others company. On the way out we stopped and visited my dad, stepmom, brother, and sister and chilled with them for a while. I had a great vacation and I am so blessed for all of my family.

Here are a few pictures that I took with my phone

My New hair color

I have been wanting some blonde in my hair for quite some time now and I just keep putting off getting it done. This weekend me and gracie were hanging out at my moms and I decided I finally wanted to do my hair. My mom was like, Sure! We do each other's hair all the time, usually when I try and put store bought haircolor in it turns it ORANGE! This time though, I bought Revlon's Frosting Kit. I was a bit nervous at first but FINALLY now I have some blonde! YAY! Please let me know what you think, Like or Dislike? Be kind please people :-)